This blog was taken from the Epilogue in my book, My Return Home to Innocence. To understand the emotional and spiritual struggles my husband, Tony and I faced over the years, you can purchase my book on amazon.com or selahwithlove.com.
There are seasons in all of our lives and we must walk through all of them.
The great and wise King Solomon revealed some deep truths to us in Ecclesiastes I would like to reflect on. In Ecclesiastes 3:2-11 in the Amplified version states:
There is a season (a time appointed) for everything and a time for every delight and event or purpose under heaven—
2 A time to be born and a time to die; a time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted.
3 A time to kill and a time to heal; a time to tear down and a time to build up.
4 A time to weep and a time to laugh; a time to mourn and a time to dance.
5 A time to throw away stones and a time to gather stones; a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing.
6 A time to search and a time to give up as lost; a time to keep and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear apart and a time to sew together; a time to keep silent and a time to speak.
8 A time to love and a time to hate; a time for war and a time for peace.
9 What profit is there for the worker from that in which he labors? 10 I have seen the task which God has given to the sons of men with which to occupy themselves.
God Set Eternity in the Heart of Man
11He has made everything beautiful and appropriate in its time. He has also planted eternity [a sense of divine purpose] in the human heart [a mysterious longing which nothing under the sun can satisfy, except God]—yet man cannot find out (comprehend, grasp) what God has done (His overall plan) from the beginning to the end.
My journey continues with, “He Makes EVERYTHING Beautiful in His Time.” In 2007, the Lord gave me a dream I would never forget. It was a very vivid dream; I can still recall the details as if I dreamed it yesterday. Tony and I were sailing in a little boat along a river surrounded by the most vibrant green trees and the water was turquoise blue and crystal clear. Suddenly, the water became turbulent and vicious, and the waves overcame the little boat and it capsized. We were in the water struggling for our lives. But, I knew how to swim. I looked for Tony to save him and I couldn’t find him so I swam to shore. I called for Tony several times, but he was nowhere to be found. The place I landed was very familiar; I had been there before. When I came to the gate, the sign across the gate entry said, “New Jerusalem.” But I stood saddened because I had lost my love in the river and didn’t want to enjoy my beautiful home without him. But, out of the blue Tony amazingly surfaced from the depths of the river back to the top. I then swam into the river to bring him safely to shore. We were so grateful and excited to be together again after being separated by the angry and tumultuous river. Tony took me by my hand and we walked through the beautiful gates of “New Jerusalem” together and experienced the wonders of the awestruck city together. Words could never describe what we saw and felt in that most glorious place!
When I woke up from my dream, Papa laid these scriptures on my heart. Psalm 66:10-12 in the Amplified, reads:
10 For You have tested us, O God; You have refined us as silver is refined.
11 You brought us into the net; You laid a heavy burden [of servitude] on us.
12 You made men (charioteer) ride over our heads [in defeat]; We went through fire and through water, Yet You brought us out into a [broad] place of abundance [to be refreshed].
Tony and I have come through deep and treacherous waters. We have journeyed through many seasons of life and marriage. Some were good and some were challenging, yet through them all, our Lord remained faithful to us. We were divorced in 2017 for over a year. Through all that we experienced as our souls were torn apart, our love for each other never changed. Matter of fact, it grew stronger for each other.
Tony and I remarried in 2018. We purchased a new home together here in Ponte Vedra and hope to spend the last days of our lives loving and caring for each other until death do we separate, but never part, because we are forever IN HIM.
Tony and I have come full circle. We were married December 20, 1980, two young broken children but we are ending our lives together as, TWO MATURE SONS FULL OF HIS GRACE, WALKING IN HIS LOVE AND TRUTH WITH OUR PAPA, OUR BELOVED LORD, AND THE PRECIOUS HOLY SPIRIT!
You may be facing a challenging season in your life right now. The beautiful truth to rely on is; the Lord is at work in you to do of His good pleasure as you turn inwardly to Him and give your season, pain, questions, frustrations, fears, and worries to Him. He is faithful even when we feel faithless. HE IS EVERYTHING WE WILL EVER NEED IN EVERY SEASON!
TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY FOR THE GREAT THINGS HE HAS DONE!!!